2011
It’s a whole new year, a whole new chapter. Here’s hoping it’ll be a better one… I haven’t been posting at all the past month, but heck, it’s been extremely busy.
Well, I’d be the world’s biggest idiot by now, ‘cos I’m still hanging on -.-
It’s been six months and I still have those dreams where you’re in my arms, where you look me in the eye and give me your perfect smile, and it’s like nothing had happened… And something in the back of my head says it’s no longer a reality, but I try to repress that feeling, and I tell myself I can’t control my dreams, but a part of me doesn’t want those dreams to stop. And honestly, waking up would be a lot easier if I didn’t see something that reminded me of you at every turn…
There, I sound like an idiot. What’s it matter any more?
Many ask me why I pursue a relationship with such fervor. Well I guess it’s due in part to the fact I’ve never had a proper relationship with a sibling. I know it’s a weird reason but part of me just wants to feel the affection, the kind of intimacy and affection that even the best of friends would lack. And then again… My best friends have all left. Sigh…
Well, until next time I suppose… Which I guess will be quite a while.
